Today is my father’s birthday. It is still a shock and an unpleasant jolt, four years after his death, on his day, to wake up in a world without him. Pop died suddenly, with my mom, tragically in a car accident. Even when we know the end of a life is coming, we are never completely prepared for the reality and the finality of death. It is okay to sit in shock, in denial, even in anger. Our deep losses hurt, and it is perfectly normal to feel that hurt and loss. You are not alone. You are grieving. May God comfort you with His peace.